Wait

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried:

Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.

I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,

And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait".

"Wait? You say, wait! " my indignant reply.

"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!

Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?

By Faith, I have asked, and am claiming your Word.
My future and all to which I can relate
hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me to WAIT?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign,
or even a 'no' to which I can resign.
And Lord, You promised that if we believe

we need but to ask, and we shall receive.

And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
As my Master replied once again, "You must wait."
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut
and grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting.... for what?"

He seemed, then, to kneel, and His eyes wept with mine,

And he tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.

I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.

I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.
All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want--But, you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;

You'd not know the power that I give to the faint;

You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence were all you could see.
You'd never experience that fullness of love
As the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save.... (for a start),

But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late into the night,

The faith that I give when you walk without sight,

The depth that's beyond getting just what you asked

Of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that "My grace is sufficient for Thee."

Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,
But, Oh, the Loss! If I lost what I'm doing in you!

So, be silent, My Child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.

And though oft' may My answers seem terribly late,

My most precious answer of all is still, "WAIT."

26 Life Lessons Learned by Age 26

Here are 26 life lessons I have learned by the ripe young age of 26:

1.) God is real. Very real.
2.) No matter how how you try, not everyone is going to like you. So deal with it.
3.) Never enter a public restroom without moist towlettes.
4.) Love is not about finding the perfect person.  It is about seeing the imperfect person perfectly.
5.) Don't substitude dishwashersoap with hand soap if you run out.  Bad things will happen.
6.) You see people very differently from adult eyes than you did when you had kid eyes.
7.) Country music will never be good.  No matter how hard you try to get me be 'cultured' with it.
8.) The best friends you will have in your life are the ones who will tell you the truth, not just what you want to hear.
9.) Keep your family close to your heart and always cherish them, even if you don't hear from them often.  They are the most important people in your life.
10.) You will get your heart broken at least a couple of times in your life up to this point. And you will have to try to find a way to push forward.
11.)  Don't bring hard boiled eggs to eat for lunch at work.  Because you get seriously funny looks from co-workers who not so subtly throw beano at you.
12.) Time doesn't necessarily heal all wounds. It just makes them easier to compartmentalize.
13.) No one.  And I mean NO one....should EVER wear skinny emo pants. 
14.) The phrase, 'God will never give you more than you can handle' is a man-made phrase. He DOES give you more than you can handle so that you can rely on Him for those things that you can't get through on your own strength.
15.) There is nothing more beautiful than sitting on a beach looking at a big blue ocean.
16.)  Some people are just plain mean.
17.) Don't take yourself too seriously.  No one else does.
18.) It's ok to get angry with God.  He can take it.
19.) Don't compare your life with others.  You have no idea what their journey is about.
20.) Life is too short for long pity parties.  Either get busy living, or get busy dying.
21.) Be eccentric now.  Don't wait for old age to have blue hair.
22.) Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful, or joyful.
23.) God loves you because of who GOD IS.  Not because of anything you did or didn't do.
24.) If you don't ask, you don't get.
25.) Make peace with your past so it doesn't screw up your present.
26.) And last but not least...........life is not tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Laughter is the Best Medicine, Except When Your Not Supposed To

I was sitting in a relatively boring 'how to communicate effectively through writing' meeting with my team at work, and one of my co-workers sitting next to me was cracking jokes and got me laughing hysterically at the most awkward timing...then the snowball got rolling and he started laughing then it made me laugh more, which made him laugh more to where I had tears rolling down my face. All the while I am trying not to let the teacher see me for fear she would think I was making fun of her.  This got me thinking about a time about 5 or 6 years ago when my family and I went to my youngest sister's talent show at their high school, which is a private Christian school.  I was sitting next to my sister Megan and we were listening to the good and some of the...lets just say...not so good talents.  I was trying to respectfully watch and just try to be appreciative of their bravery for getting up on the stage. Pretty soon this young girl gets up on the stage and starts singing in the most awful pitch I have ever heard in my life...and boy is she doing it with gusto! I instantly knew that I could not look at my sister Megan sitting next to me for fear that the laughter would be released.  Sure enough, out of the corner of my eye, I see my sister Megan turn her head directly to me with a huge Cheshire Cat grin on her face......and I just LOST it....I tried so so hard to keep it in, but something in me that day just didn't have the capability and I started laughing hysterically...and LOUDLY to the point where I was crying.  I FELT SO BAD! But I honest to goodness had no capacity in me whatsoever to contain it.  Then because of my reaction my sister Megan loses it and starts also laughing to the point of tears and we couldn't stop for almost the whole song.  Thank GOODNESS that poor little girl up on the stage did not hear us...I felt so bad...we were more laughing at each other than her, but I can't imagine how she would have felt had she heard us.  I DID however get the poison look of death from my mom when she saw us laughing uncontrollably...That pretty much said it all!

Oh the memories. :)

Home Sweet Colorado

It is finally starting to act like a summer here.  The sun has been coming out, the grass is green, the skies are blue, and the beautiful Colorado that I moved here for is finally showing her pretty face!

On a completely different note, I had some weird and disturbing dreams last night.  I had a dream that my sisters little dog had another batch of puppies. And they were SO cute! But in my dream, they were outside with momma dog and a possum came up and snatched one and took it away to eat it!! And all I could hear is this high pitched yelping coming from the bushes and I couldn't get to it to save it! It was an aweful dream! I wondering if it was one of those random message dreams that God sometimes gives, like when the skinny cow ate the fat cow.  This somehow seems much more disturbing though. Here is a picture of my sisters pups when they were born last year...they are adorable!

Here's to hoping I have better dreams this week! This week is flying by, which I'm grateful for.  Gotta love the weekends!